Why should I care when you don't even care about me

Why should I think about you when you don't even think about me even for a seconds

Why should my heart pounding for you when your heart don't want to pounding for me

Why should I missing you when you didn't miss me at all

why should I searching for you when all you think about is running away from me

Why..??

Can you tell me why..??

Can you explain to me..??

Even myself can't explain why should I do all of this

Everything's an illusion?

I try to sleep but my eyes are open
I can't think cause my heart is broken
And there's a bottle right next to me
I'll down a few drinks just to take the pain away
I wanna say all the things I need to say
I won't lie, I'll just tell them honestly
If God can take a friend away from me
Then I can say all I want and he won't do anything
My tongue is weak and every time I try to speak I can't say nothing at all

I spend hours tryna make it through the day
I don't know if I'll ever be the same
It's hard enough when you're all alone
In the city that you love,
My tongue is weak and every time I try to speak I can't say nothing,
Nothing at all
It's hard to think when losing someone only make you wanna scream
And now that you're gone

Sleep well, my friend
There will be another moment we'll meet again
Just let it go
Sleep well, goodnight
You're something to remember
I wish that you were here by my side

Oh well........

When you're alone, do you think of me?
And my diamond ring's thrown out to see.
And when you love, do you love for me?
Like harmony, a never ending dream.

Oh well, oh well. I still hope for the best.
Say goodbye and send me off with a kiss farewell.
And I promise I'll be just as strong as I can be.
Maybe you could get some sleep tonight

So here's your song. It's twisting me.
I'd give anything to make you scream.
And I'll just smile, and make believe I don't feel a thing.

That doesn't work for me.

Oh well, oh well. Guess I'll see you in hell.
There's a pretty little picture that's in my head.
And I'm starting to dream, changing colours while I sleep.
Maybe I'm just wasting time.

And that was it. I had made it clean just across the street with my new
Wings.
So I'll just fly and hope that I remember the good times

when it's done.

Oh well, oh well. I can't live with myself as I'm climbing in your window
To get to your bed.
And I'll be what you need, you can call me anything just as long as we're
Still friends.

When she smiles it's got nothing to do with me.
I'm not the one who sings her to sleep.
And I've been talking to God asking for just a little help with you but
It's hopeless.

It's not the first time but this one really carved it in.
Tell your new friends that they don't know you like I do.
It's over. I wanna see you again. I wanna feel it again.

I'll keep you warm safe in my arms. 'Till heaven calls, keep holding on.

Me and little Dawson on New Year 2012..:)

Happy New Year 2012..

Through glass

I'm looking at you through the glass...

Don't know how much time has passed
Oh, god it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home sitting all alone inside your head

How do you feel? That is the question
But I forget.. you don't expect an easy answer
When something like a soul becomes
Initialized and folded up like paper dolls and little notes
You can't expect a bit of hope
So while you're outside looking in
Describing what you see
Remember what you're staring at is me

Cause I'm looking at you through the glass...
Don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever
When no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head

How much is real? So much to question
An epidemic of the mannequins
Contaminating everything
When thought came from the heart
It never did right from the start
Just listen to the noises
Null and void instead of voices
Before you tell yourself
It's just a different scene
Remember it's just different from what you've seen

And it's the stars
The stars
That shine for you.. yeah
And it's the stars
The stars..

If only I can tell her how I truly feel when she asking me how am I..

Did I'm doing fine..??

Well.. I just smile and say of course I'm fine at the same time asking her back what would you think..

But

If only she can look through my eyes and see how much

I'm miss her..

I wish that I can tell her that I'm still waiting for her

Tell her that I'm still in love with her

but

It so sad I couldn't tell her how I feel..