What is depression..??

What is depression really?

Is there one concrete definition,

or has the meaning loosened as our generation has continued it's downhill descent? To me, depression is simply my life.

I'm not suicidal. I'm not a cutter.

I don't hate the world.

I don't dress completely in black.

I'm just sad.

I've been sad for what feels like my entire life,

but that's not true.

I was happy once and I can vaguely remember what it felt like,

but I can't touch it. I can't get that happiness back,

I don't know how. That's what depression is to me,

knowing what happiness is,

but never being able to touch it,

to feel it.