I've

Never felt so sober..

I've never felt the low that I feel tonight ..

Your words made everything drag on, and on..

I finally found her, and when I did I just couldn't make things right

Is this really happening..

Oh God I think I just ruined my life

What the fuck am I doing?

I can't tell the difference from wrong and right..

I second guess my decisions cause I haven't been this person in my whole life..

I think I need something new here when I keep longing for what I had..

No need for second opinions,,I do the best I can to ruin what I have..

I've got nothing left to hide.. I thought this was what you wanted

Someone who gets everything right,,

Someone to put you first in their life..

Just know that it kills me when I hear anything to do with you..

You will see..

Believe me..

I need to be right where you are but know that I'm leaving..

And you won't hear for a year from now..

This kills me 'cause now I think that everything,,

everything was about you..

MAKE ME SICK..!!

Who am I..?? Totally confused............

Lately,,I feel like I'm lost myself..

I don't even know who I am... I'm kinda confuse of what happening around me..

Confused of everything.. Confused with my feeling,,with my friends..Everything..!!

I don't know what happen to me..

There's a lot of things going through my mind,,and I don't know how to deal with it..

Sometimes I'm freaking out..

Right now,,I feels like I'm slowly dying from the inside..

Gosh.. I wish I am a robot..

How long can I pretend that I'm okay when deep down in me,,

I'm totally not okay..

Sometimes I feels like my heart want me to fall in love but my mind says don't fall in love..

What am I suppose to do..??

I try to be tough but I'm just not strong enough to handle this situations..

Can I just give up in everything..??

Its feel like I already lost my hope..

Learn with you..

I’m running in circles, jumping over hurdles

Working on a song to sing

I want to tell you how I’m feeling

Finding it hard to do

Cause I don’t know how to say it, don’t know how you’ll take it

Don’t know how to fall in love

But I want to learn with you

Savior, please keep saving, me.

Savior, please take my hand .

I work so hard, I live so fast.

This life begins, and then it ends.

And I do the best that I can,

but I don't know how long I'll last.

I try to be so tough,

but I'm just not strong enough.

I can't do this alone,

God I need you to hold on to me.

I try to be good enough,

but I'm nothing without your love.

Savior, please keep saving me.

Savior, please help me stand.

I fall so hard, I fade so fast.

Will you begin, right where I end?

And be the God of all I am because you're all I have.

Hallelujah

Everything you are to me,

is everything I'll ever need.

And I am learning to believe,

that I don't have to prove a thing.

Cause you're the one who's saving me.

Hallelujah

Savior, please keep saving, me.

What do you think..??

Nowadays I start to feel this feelings again..

Feeling of missing someone..huhuhuh

Since a long time I didn't feel like this..

I never expect to much for this..

But I hope I get "green light" from her..hehehehe

Well honestly,,I don't know what I wanna write right now..

It seems that my mind can't think to much right now..

I just wrote what anything that comes to my head right now..

hahahaha

Wow.. Am I totally in love with her..??

I don't know.. What do you think..??

hahahaha

Blessed with a CURSE

Ever since this began, I was blessed with a curse.

And for better or for worse I was born into a hearse.

I know I said my heart beats for you. I was lying girl, it beats for two.

Because I got your love and I got these vices.

Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.

Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.

Ever since this began, I was blessed with a curse.

And for better or for worse I was born into a hearse.

I know I said my heart beats for you. I was lying girl.

I've been lying to you...

Everything I touch turns to stone.

So wrap your arms around me, and leave me on my own.

Everything I touch turns to stone.

So wrap your arms around me, and leave me on my own.

Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.

Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.

Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.

Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.

Because everything I touch turns to stone.

So wrap your arms around me, and leave me, I can't hold on.

Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.

Take back every word I've said, every word I've said.

Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.

Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.

After a years,,Im already forget about her..

Its not easy to forget someone that you like..

Someone that you want to be with..

But Im totally shocked when her friend told me that she like me..

At first I thought that she mean that she like me not more than a friend..

But that not what she mean..

Now I confuse..

I don't know whether its true or not..

But her friend ask me to ask her by my self..

Wow... Im speechless..