Sorry

As day go pass by,,this feeling seems to fading away
I try to hold on but I'm not strong enough to hold on for too long..
I don't know if I can wait..
But I feel like I'm getting tired already..
I'm tired with all of this.. I'm tired of waiting and hoping,,but you seems to go away from me..
I give you all of me but looks like there's no hope at all..
I'm not gonna forget you but I'm gonna let you go and move on..
I don't know if I wanna start it over again..
I too tired already.. I just wanna rest for a while..
Maybe I don't deserve you.. You deserve someone better than me..
I'm sorry,,I'm not good enough for you..
I'm sorry because I can't be perfect..
Sorry...

I tell you that I love you..

But you said you're not ready yet for any relationship..

And I said I'll wait for you but you said you won't promise me anything..

But I said it's okay,,because I'm the one who want to wait for you..

And now I'm still waiting and hoping that someday we will be together..

But I don't know

If we never meant to be,,then I should just let go..

There are times when I wanna tell the world how much I love someone but,

the world already knows how much that person loves someone else

Letting go~

We can never turn back the pages of time,

though we may wish to relive a happy moment, or say goodbye just one last time,

we never can,

because the sands of time continue to fall,

and we can’t turn the hourglass over

It's time to letting go..

It's okay.. I'll be okay..

Just saying

She have no idea how many times I look at her and think

"If only I had the courage to say what my heart thinks"

But

Sometimes its better not to say anything, than to say how you truly feel and make things worse.

Bukan kali pertama

Ni bukan kali pertama saya rasa begitu merindui seseorang..

Cuma setelah sekian lama perasaan ni kembali lagi dan membuat saya sedih..

Tak ada apa yang dapat saya lakukan selain berdiam..

Kenapa la tiba2 perasaan ni datang lagi..

Saya ingatkan saya dah dapat melupakan dia dan terus move on..

totally..................

Diamond on a landmine by Billy Talent 3

Woah-oh-oh

Woah-oh

Woah-oh-oh

Slapped my face, slammed the door

A dozen roses lay on the floor

I saw her friends and I was told

She blocked my number from her cell phone

You said we were meant to be

Now this obsession is killing me

Until I have a heart attack

I'll keep on trying to win you back

Alone at last,

I can't wait till we're alone at last

All i wanted was a second chance, second chance

To hold you in my arms at last

Forever, forever

I'll walk a thousand miles

Just to tell her, to tell her

Our love is still alive

And I'll never, I'll never

I'll never let it die

Well you'd better watch your step

She's a diamond on a landmine

I'm not so sure about this word

But she kept calling me insecure

I tried to quit but there's no use

Cause I'm addicted to her abuse

She's in control of everything

I'm just a puppet, she pulls my strings

Denying truth, I'll test my fate

And keep on playing this wicked game

Alone at last,

I can't wait till we're alone at last

All i wanted was a second chance, second chance

To hold you in my arms at last

Forever, forever

I'll walk a thousand miles

Just to tell her, to tell her

Our love is still alive

And I'll never, I'll never

I'll never let it die

Well you'd better watch your step

She's a diamond on a landmine

Better watch your step

She's a diamond on a landmine

Better watch your step

She's a diamond on a landmine

Waiting to explode

We're dancing on thin ice before

Frozen from the winter's cold

And if it were to crack below

I'd never let you go

Alone at last,

I can't wait till we're alone at last

All i wanted was a second chance, second chance

To hold you in my arms at last

Forever, forever

I'll walk a thousand miles

Just to tell her, to tell her

Our love is still alive

And I'll never, I'll never

I'll never let it die

Well you'd better watch your step

She's a diamond on a landmine

Better watch your step

She's a diamond on a landmine

Better watch your step

She's a diamond on a landmine

Waiting to explode

Better watch your step

She's a diamond on a landmine

Better watch your step

She's a diamond on a landmine

Better not touch her

She's a diamond on a landmine

Better to forget her

She's a diamond on a landmine

Waiting to explode

Drumming

When I play..Its make me smile

Even though its tired sometimes..hahahaha

Drumming has become a huge part of my life..

I will never stop playing..

I'm so alone

I felt lonely.

It was the only word to describe it.

Loneliness. Being alone, nobody there beside you.

It’s amazing how much somebody can affect you.

You know she’s really a part of you when your emotions follow hers, even though you don’t exactly understand it.

Then the loneliness creeps in, because she’s the only one whom you have been able to turn to.

You share so much to her, you didn’t have the time and the effort to open up to anybody else. She’s the only person who understands you now.

But she wants space for a while. Told you to lay off for some time while she gets herself together.

Not understanding what you feel; it’s influenced by her emotions, which you can’t seem to comprehend.

This is so hard.

The only way to make me feel alive again is if she does too.

I’m so lonely when she’s sad.

I’m so alone.

Think deeply..

Why everyone seems to blame love when their relationship got problems..

Is it love fault that cause them broken hearted..??

Some people said that love hurts,,love sucks and whatsoever..

Until some of them afraid to fall in love because they don't want to get hurt again..

Actually its their fault.. Their fault because choose the wrong person..

To be in love its good because we share our happiness with someone that we love..

Share everything with them.. Maybe we also share our secret with them also.. Who knows..

But if we want to find the right person,,pray and wait for God to answer our prayer..

Don't just follow your desire to be in love.. If you follow your desire,,thats will make you hurt and broken heart when God take him/her from you.. And when you love your spouse,,accept them for who or what they are.. Accept their negative side.. Don't only look them by their positive side just because they are good looking..

But the true meaning of love is in the Bible..

True love from our Father in heaven.. HE died for us.. HE carry the cross to save us from our sins.. When we fall,,HE always there for us..

If we compare our love than God love.. Which one is the true love..??

So think deeply.. Don't simply said that love hurt or suck.. Or blame love when you disappointed by the one you love..

Love is patient

Love is kind

It does not envy,,it does not boast,,it is not proud

It does not dishonor others,,it is not self-seeking,,it is not easily angered

It keeps no record of wrongs

Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth

It always protect,,always trusts,,always hopes,,always perseveres

Love never fails..

1 Corinthians 13 : 4-8a

Early morning by Alesana

Last night I forgot how the sound your voice whispered sweet

Goodbyes, your eyes left to die

I'm alone too

I don't stand why

Why not one more night

one last kiss good bye

my sweet love tonight

I hope the stars still spell out your name where you are...

Kiss my closings eyes

Help me sleep without you I'm so lost

Tonight I cry

Tell me why

I can't live without your warm embrace

Why not one more night

one last kiss good bye

my sweet love tonight

I hope the stars still spell out your name where you are...

I close my eyes and you are everything I see

Goodbye

Goodbye to you my love

I will forget you

I'll see you soon

Goodbye my love

Goodbye to you my love

I will forget you

Let me live

What the.........

I wish she can see through my eyes and realize that how much I love her..

I don't know why I can't just tell her that I love her..

Before this I did try to tell her but when I see her,,I can't even say a single words..

I choked like that..

What the.........

Now how am I suppose to tell her..??

Just say it like that..??

Hah..!! Better no need..

Uugghhhhhhhhhh...!!

I can't sleep with you on my mind..

Every time I close my eyes you were in my thought..

It makes me cannot sleep at all..

So I decide not to sleep because I'm trying not to think about you..

Aarrgghhh..>.<

Empty

I don't know if I'm getting better right now or I'm already used to this pain..

I feel so empty.. I wonder why..

I totally empty right now..

As you wish

Life is meaningless without you

Love can be such a beautiful torture

My heart breaks as I long for you

Love can be such lovely torture

I will climb the hills, draw my sword and take down

Anyone who tries to stand in front of me

Please know I’ll never run away without you in my arms

One day lovers will dream of this undying kiss

Not of Romeo or Juliet

Stories told of our love will never die

I’ve slain the most unholy things, endured such terrific pain

Finally I’ll feel your caress again

I’ve braved the cold and lonely seas, I have prevailed against the odds

Then again…

I will climb the hills, draw my sword and take down

Anyone who tries to stand in front of me

Please know I’ll never run away without you in my arms

One day lovers will dream of this undying kiss

Not of Romeo or Juliet

Stories told of our love will never die

Will you forgive what I’ve done to give you four white horses?

One day lovers will dream of this undying kiss

Not of Romeo or Juliet

Stories told of our love will never die.

Sometimes

Sometimes I feel like no one cares.

Sometimes I feel like no one is there.

Sometimes I want to kill myself.

Sometimes I think I need some help.

Sometimes I feel like I'm alone.

Sometimes I'm in an empty zone.

Sometimes I feel like I'm not alive.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm deprived.

Sometimes I think the world should end.

Sometimes I think I have no friends.

Sometimes I want to make them see that sometimes I wish I wasn't me...

Dead memories

Sitting in the dark, I can't forget

Even now, I realize the time I'll never get

Another story of the bitter pills of fate

I can't go back again, I can't go back again

But you asked me to love you and I did

Traded my emotions for a contract to commit

And when I got away I only got so far

The other me is dead, I hear his voice inside my head

And we were never alive and we won't be born again

But I'll never survive with dead memories in my heart

Dead memories in my heart

Dead memories in my heart

You told me to love you and I did

Tied my soul into a knot and got me to submit

So when I got away I only kept my scars

The other me is gone now I don't know where I belong

And we were never alive and we won't be born again

But I'll never survive with dead memories in my heart

Dead memories in my heart

Dead memories in my heart

Dead memories in my heart

Dead visions in your name

Dead fingers in my veins

Dead memories in my heart

Dead memories in my heart

Dead memories in my heart

Dead memories in my heart

Leave things unsaid

I feel so down nowadays.. I know why I'm feel sad.. But every time I try to cheer myself up..

Its getting worse.. Damn.. I tired being like this..

Why can't I just let her go and move on.. She's with someone else now..

She's happy with that guy.. Why should I ruin it..

I don't want to destroy their relationship..

But I just can't stop thinking about her..

I wonder if I tell her earlier what would happen to me and her..

Would she accept me or not..

But sometimes is better to leave things unsaid

than tell the truth and make one side hurt..

I guess its too late to cry

too early to regret

too dumb to ask why

too good to forget

too honest to say I still love you

too foolish to say I'm doing fine

too desperate to wish my life is through

And

too selfish to wish you're still mine..

The drummer

Joey Jordison from Slipknot.. This is my idol..:)

Trivium ex-drummer.. Travis Smith.. I like the way he play double bass drum..

Cradle of Filth drummer.. Marthus.. I speechless with his blast speed..haha;p

Lamb Of God drummer.. Chris Adler.. His double bass style so unique for me..

As I lay Dying drummer.. Jordan Mancino.. I like the way he play in their song "The sound of truth"..Its awesome..;)

This is the list of the drummer that I used to practice my skills and double pedal style..

All of them gots different style and skills.. But when I combine all their style and skills..

Wow.. Its so fucking awesome..!!

They are my teacher..:)

Buried myself alive

You almost always pick the best time,

to drop the worst lines.

You almost made me cry again this time.

Another false alarm,

red flashing lights.

Well this time I'm not going to watch myself die.

I think I made it a game to play your game

and let myself cry.

I buried myself alive on the inside,

so I could shut you out,

and let you go away for a long time. GET OUT!

I guess it's ok I puked the day away.

I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way.

And if you want me back,

you're gonna have to ask.

I think the chain broke away,

and I felt it the day that I had my own time

I took advantage of myself and felt fine.

But it was worth the night,

I caught an early flight and I made it home.

I guess its ok I puked the day away

I guess its better you trapped yourself in your own way.

And if you want me back

you're gonna have to ask

nicer than that

nicer than that...

With my foot on your neck

I finally have you,

Right where I want you,

Right where I want you,

Right where I want you,

Right where I want you

I guess its ok I puked the day away

I guess its better you trapped yourself in your own way

And if you want me back,

You're gonna have to ask

Nicer than that,(I guess its ok I puked the day away)

Nicer than that (I guess its better you trapped yourself in your own way)

Yeah, and if you want me back,

You're gonna have to ask

Nicer than that

Nicer!!

Nicer!!

Joey Jordison Pearl double bass drum..

This is the pearl Joey Jordison export 7 piece double bass drum.. I've been wanting this drum for too long.. Damn.. I wish I had this drum right now..

If I had enough money I won't missed out to buy this drum set..

I don't know why I'm so addicted playing drum..Before this I don't know how to play instrument.. All I know is singing only..

honestly my voice not that good..hahahaha..

And then my brother teach me how to play guitar because he wanna make a band and I'm one of them.. But I learn guitar so slow..

Then he try to teach me playing bass guitar.. But I don't interested at all playing bass guitar..

Without he knows I've learn playing drum by my self..

I start playing drum in church.. I'm watch my friend playing drum and observe the way he playing drum.. Then I practice by my self..hahahaha.. I never thought I enjoyed playing drum than guitar or bass guitar..hahahaha

Now I'm the drummer in our band and I'm gonna keep practicing so that I can play drum perfectly..

Keep it up T-gun..!!:)

Why am I so blind.. The girl that I truly love were right in front of me..

She always near with me but I was too blind to realize it..

I never thought that she's the one that I'm looking for

but I go for the wrong person.. Damn I'm totally blind...

I'm so stupid..!! I don't know what I should do now.. I am confuse..

Should I tell her or just let it be.. Just let this feeling go like that..

I don't want she think that I'm a player..

All this time I was in love with her but I didn't realize it and denied this feeling..

I thought it was nothing.. I thought we never be more than a friend..

Now I know,, every time I see her.. My heart beat so fast.. I feel totally different.. Its not normal at all...

And when she's far away,,I can't stop thinking about her..

Every second,, every minute,, every hours,,everyday..

I'll think of her..

Its already too late for me to tell her about my true feeling..

Now I feel so lost..

If I ever had a chance to tell you that

I really LOVE you..

When I cant sleep

I sit

And stare at the moon

While I sit

Just thinking of you

As I stare

At the beautiful stars

As I stare

Wondering just how you are

While I wonder

As I stare and I sit

I know I'll see

Your face again

Tonight

I miss you..I miss you..I miss you..I miss you..I miss you..I miss you..I miss you..I miss you..I miss you..I miss you..I miss you..I miss you..I miss you..

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I miss you..

I MISS YOU SO MUCH..!!

Here I am

Is it worth the can you even hear me

Standing with your spotlight on me

Not enough to feed the hungry

I'm tired and I felt it for awhile now

In this sea of lonely

The taste of ink is getting old

It's four o' clock in the fucking morning

Each day gets more and more like the last day

Still I can see it coming

While I'm standing in the river drowning

This could be my chance to break out

This could be my chance to say goodbye

At last it's finally over

Couldn't take this town much longer

Being half dead wasn't what I planned to be

Now I'm ready to be free

So here I am it's in my hands

And I'll savor every moment of this

So here I am alive at last

And I'll savor every moment of this

I'm happy..

“I’m happy for you.”

That’s probably the biggest and hardest lie you can say to someone you still love,

who found someone else to love

What are words..:)

Anywhere you are, I am near

Anywhere you go, I'll be there

Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see

How every single promise I keep

Cuz what kind of guy would I be

If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words

If you really don't mean them

When you say them

What are words

If they're only for good times

Then they don't

When it's love

Yeah, you say them out loud

Those words, They never go away

They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me

And I know I'm meant to be where I am

And I'm gonna be

Standing right beside her tonight

And I'm gonna be by your side

I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words

If you really don't mean them

When you say them

What are words

If they're only for good times

Then they don't

When it's love

Yeah, you say them out loud

Those words, They never go away

They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near

Anywhere you go, I'll be there

And I'm gonna be here forever more

Every single promise I keep

Cuz what kind of guy would I be

If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

Its hurt to see you with someone else..

I.......

I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..I MISS YOU..

I MISS YOU..<3>

I'll be just fine..

I'll be just fine pretending I'm not...

I'm far from lonely and its all that I've got

Yeah its all that I've gone..

It hurt yo much

Crimson tears run down my arm,,

All the pain and all the harm..

My only way to let it out,,I wanna scream,,I wanna shout..

But I don’t make a sound,,I keep it inside..

I wanna break out,,but instead I hide..

I sit in my room,,and hide in my shell,, The life that I’m living,,my own private hell..

The crimson tears,,down my arm they run..

I look down at my arm,,what have I done..

Looking for you

Why am I looking for you

But.....

When I didn't see you

I feel sad..:'(

Sob.. Sob..

When all the city sleep,,I'm still stay awake..

When Im looking through the window

you came across my mind and it makes me feel sad

coz Im all alone tonight

I wish you were here with me..:'(

I caught fire - The Used

Seem to stop my breath

My head on your chest

Waiting to cave in

From the bottom of my...

Hear your voice again

Could we dim the sun

And wonder where we've been

Maybe you and me

So kiss me like you did

My heart has stopped beating

Such a softer sin

(I'm melting, I'm melting)

In your eyes

I lost my place

Could stay a while

And I'm melting

In your eyes

Like my first time

That I caught fire

Just stay with me

Lay with me

Now

Never caught my breath

Every second I'm without you I'm a mess

Ever know each other

Trust these words are stones

My cuts are healing

Learning how to love

I'm melting (I'm melting)

In your eyes

I lost my place

Could stay a while

And I'm melting

In your eyes

Like my first time

That I caught fire

Just stay with me

Lay with me...

(Stay with me lay with me now)

You could stay and watch me fall

And of course I'd ask for help

Just stay with me now

We could take our heads off, stay in bed

Just make love, that's all

Just stay with me now

I'm melting (I'm melting)

In your eyes

I lost my place

Could stay a while

and I'm melting

In your eyes

Like my first time

That I caught fire

Just stay with me

Lay with me

In your eyes

I lost my place

Could stay a while

and I'm melting

In your eyes

Like my first time

That I caught fire

Just stay with me lay with me

(Stay with me, lay with me)

In your eyes

Lets sleep till the sun burns out

I'm melting in your eyes (I'm melting in your eyes)

Lets sleep till the sun burns out

I'm melting in your eyes

Letting love find a way - The Used

Lay your head down just for now

Space fills your mind and you dream awhile

The sun floods your room as you drown

your lungs full of breathing

Your true love believe

One more time to say I love you always

and keeping faith letting love find a way

Move let the stars suck you in

Hold tight, the night's air and breathe again

Let go and be burnt by the moon

Your hands full of feeling your true love, Believe

One more time to say I love you always

and keeping faith letting love find a way

One more time to say I love you always

and keeping faith letting love find a way

I love you to death

Could you love me to death

Could you love me

One more time to say I love you always

and keeping faith letting love find a way

One more time to say I love you always

and keeping faith letting love find a way

Letting love find a way

Dataran Merdeka..!!

Enjoy this life..!!;)

On call..My mom call..hahaha

Azrole..hehehe

Mcm rindu seseorang jak sy ni..hahahaha

Huh..??O.o

At dataran merdeka..hehehe

I'm holding real gun.. Glock 17..hahaha

Yeah..!!hahahahaha:p

Nice helicopter..hahaha

I'm standing next to rocket launcher..hehehe

Do I look like Rambo..??hahahah;p

WOOOh..!!

Me and my lovely converse..hehehe;p

Jalan2 di dataran merdeka dengan Azrole.. Saja2 sebab boring berperuk dalam bilik jak..hahahaha;p

I.....

Sold my life to bring the rain

maybe to wash me clean

Sold my soul to stop the pain

hoping you'd set me free

All your fears,,all the pain

You know that you can lay it all on me

Good Charlotte- Victims of love lyric

In the beginning, I tried to warn you

You play with fire, its gonna burn you

And here we are now, in the same situation,

You never listen, I never listen

Now I am thinking of a way that I can make an escape

It's got me caught up in a web and my hearts the prey

Do you really wanna throw your heart away, away, away?

Everybody's hurt somebody before

Everybody's been hurt by somebody before

You can change but you will always come back for more

Its a game and we are all just victims of love.

Don't try to fight it, victims of love

You can't decide it, victims of love, victims of love

Now you've back tracked

You're running away cause it just happened again and you don't want it to end

Trying your best to not let yourself go cold, so cold.

Now you think about the things you thought you wanted to say

But when you open up your mouth it don't come out that way

Are you really gonna throw your heart away?

Everybody's hurt somebody before

Everybody's been hurt by somebody before

You can change but you will always come back for more

Its a game and we are all just victims of love.

Don't try to fight it, victims of love

You can't decide it, victims of love, victims of love

You never listen, I never listen

Now I am thinking of a way that I can make an escape

It's got me caught up in a web and my hearts the prey

Do you really wanna throw your heart away, away, away?