Tuesday, November 30, 2010

I'll be there for you..


When it seems like there's no one left to run to in this empty world
you can come to me I'll be your shooting star.
You can tell me your dreams I can't promise to make them come true,
but I'll be there to pick up the pieces of your broken heart
if your dreams happen to fall through.

You..


To be honest I like You..
NO
I love You.. Yes,,I do..
I love you since we get closer to each other..
NO
I became closer to because I love You..
I love You and I need you by my side
Not because I'm lonely
But
Because I'm ready..
I'm ready to make a new life
A new story of my life with someone like You
I would to give a chance for my heart to fall in love again..
Fall in love with someone like You

road to nowhere



Tired and lonely still we stand,
On a road to nowhere.
Trapped in a world of endless days, my engine's stalling.
Body and mind are breaking down,
On a road to nowhere.
Destiny silent, hear no sound, as I wait forever.

Feelings that filled me left me cold
On this road to nowhere
Dreams are my saviors, save me now,
cause I know I'm fallin'
Candles burn slowly, flames shine so brightly.
Light in the darkness, save me from madness again.

Only the lonely, can possibly know me.
Heat keeps on rising, fire engulfs me again.
Keeps on rising.

Farewell, I miss you
I'm sick of these good byes
Cause it tore us apart, right from the start
I miss you.

Monday, November 29, 2010

I love you and goodbye...


Dearest love,
I hope this message finds you well
as these endless thoughts drip from my soul
every single word secretly paints a fairytale
of when we will melt into one...
eyes forfeit sight to the pain
cold scalpel's steel whispers tear at my very core
as I cling to memories of you
I am so scared...
so scared...
I need you with me
were the last words that I wrote for you enough to tell you
that in my death the light that shone through my painful darkness
was a blinding vision of your eternal smile?
it's me again,
is it me or am I wrong to be concerned?
will the beauty of your pen ever cross my eyes again?
was this all a lie? why?
make it stop,
make this pounding in my head stop
fill my lungs with air, give me one more day to make her dreams come true
she understands right?
that I'm not coming back...
she understands right?
that I'm not coming back...
make it stop,
make the pounding stop
I'm not coming back, I'm not coming back, I'm not coming back...
I don't know what happened...
who would have thought my life would end up like this?
I didn't mean to hurt her,
not hurt her like this...
I can't feel my legs
I can't feel my legs and I can't even cry...
how could somebody die like this?
if my words ever reach you
I'll assume you don't care
never knew that silence could cut so deep
or
that you could twist the blade
now I curse all of your beautiful lies..
I love you and goodbye...

If only you could see


If only you could see
If only you could see your the only girl I've ever dreamed of
Should I apologize to such pathetic eyes
Just the sight of you has made me sick tonight
It was your poison kiss that turned me into this
Then again there is a chance you could be mine tonight

Darling will you please take a walk with me we can count the stars and disappear
I wish you could see your the only girl I've ever dreamed of are you satisfied?

What fate has led me here...
Oh please forgive me dear
I don't know if I could survive on my own
I could have married you instead I buried you
Now I will see if I can fall asleep alone

Are you satisfied?
The nightmares coming true
Are you satisfied?
Girl it's only you
Are you satisfied?
I'm telling you the truth
Are you satisfied?

afraid

"You're not even mine but I'm afraid to lose you"..

Sunday, November 28, 2010

It never ends..


Started off as a one night stand. Lingered to a fling.

The sirens and the sergeants didn't seem to mean a thing.

Hide your fangs all you want you still need the blood.

Tell us that its different now,you're up to no good.


Take my hand, show me the way, we are the children that fell

from grace.
Take my hand, show me the way, we are the children

who can’t be saved.


One more nail in the coffin. One more foot in the grave. One

more time I'm on my knees, as I try to walk away. How has it

come to this?


I've said it once. I've said it twice. I’ve said it a thousand fucking times.

That I'm ok, that I'm fine. That it’s all just in my mind.
But

this has got the best of me. And I can’t seem to sleep. It’s not

because you’re not with me. It’s because you never leave. You

say this is suicide? I say this is a war. And I’m losing the

battle. Man down. Is this what you call love?

Every second, every minute, every hour, every day

It never ends..

Saturday, November 27, 2010

She...

A year has passed.. One year she went with no news..Without ever contact me.. I don't know what already happen to her..Since she go away,,I'm alone.. I don't know how to say it but I feel so lonely..From outside I'm smilingbut inside I'm dying..Before this I really can't forget her.. She was everything to me..But I have to move on..I have to forget about my past and start a new life..I don't want to waste my time waiting and hoping for the things that never happen..I don't want stuck in my past for too long.. Because I wanna change and make a new story of my life..I want to fall in love..Yes,,I want to fall in love again..But it's not that easy to make someone fall in love for me..Fall in love with the right girl.. With the girl who truly care for me.. And always go to church..Sometimes,,I confused about finding someone special..It's hard and not easy.. And sometimes I also don't know about my feelings..Until now.. I found someone..But I'm not sure if she's the right girl for me.. I don't know if she love me..But what I know is I'm falling in love with her.. I wish I can tell her about my feelings but I'm afraid.. I'm afraid being rejected..I don't know if she already noticed that I fall in love with her..But someday I hope she will know about it and that time..I hope she can accept me as someone special in her heart..And I'll never forget to pray for all of this..I'll surrender everything in HIS hands..

I'm sorry


It's so hard to say that I'm sorry, I'll make everything alright
All these things that I've done now what have I become
And where'd I go wrong
I don't mean to hurt, just to put you first
I won't tell you lies
I will stand accused with my hand on my heart
I'm just trying to say

I'm sorry, it's all that I can say
You mean so much and I'd fix all that I've done
If I could start again
I'd throw it all away to the shadows of regrets
And you would have the best of me

I know that I can't take back all of the mistakes
But I will try
Although it's not easy, I know you believe me,
'cause I would not lie
Don't believe their lies,
told through jealous eyes,
they don't understand
I won't break your heart
And
I won't bring you down..

I don't want this moment to ever end


I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everything's nothing without you
I'll wait here forever just to, to see you smile
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you

Through it all, I made my mistakes
I stumble and fall, but I mean these words

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'll bleed my heart out to show
That I won't let go

Thoughts read unspoken, forever in doubt
Pieces of memories fall to the ground
I know what I didn't have so, I won't let this go
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you

All the streets where I walked alone, with nowhere to go
have come to an end

Thursday, November 25, 2010

I am more than I was before


I am more than I was before

More than created by stuff that I have,

More than illusion of good and of bad.

More than a miniscule moment ago,

More than my thoughts lined up in a row.

The future holds promise of fortune and fame,

It comes and it goes and seems all the same.

It's not here yet, so all I can do,

Is wait it's arrival, wait and be blue.

The stoplight brings pleasure, but I don't know how,

There seems no ailment, as long as it's now.

This creation continues, it builds then it burns,

The making of ashes spins the world one more turn.

Creating my now one thought at a time,

Not through my memories that may seem sublime.

Though memories seem

happy, there I can't stay,

The pain from the past comes to get in the way.

Moments don't stand, still like a stone,

From future to past they fly through my bones.

In these moments we have yet to see,

We send our thoughts searching, for what we will be.

And within these infinite moments that pass,

Comes endless future like molding hot glass.

Our thoughts heat the furnace, forming the mold,

What form will I take before I grow old?

Pain is the fire, creating the glass,

Now is the mold, bringing truths to pass.

If our thoughts ring forth each moment the same,

Our future and present unchanged will remain.

Don't get stuck in the past


Don't get stuck in the past,
Where you linger on and on in familiarity,
And replay old memories over and over again.

Don't overindulge in the future,
Where you daydream about leading a grand life endlessly,
And imagine the sweetest days you could ever live.

Don't neglect your present,
Where true life begins to unfold and pass you by silently,
And you wonder about missed opportunities and lost moments.

For lessons, quietly contemplate about your past,
And you might realize life has cleverly placed you in situations,
That demanded you to raise up to the challenges and to grow.

To reduce your anxiety and panic attacks, make plans for your future,
And you might see that your dreams and goals are acting like guiding lights,
Shining the path for you to follow through and learning to overcome your fears.

To avoid the state of merely existing, be aware of your present,
And you might notice that you are part of a grander scheme,
Where the past is long gone and the future has yet to come,
And that your present is the most precious moment you could ever feel.

Your past and your future both lie in your present,
Where your present wields the power to influence and change,
The way you think about your past either with gratitude or with regret,
And shape your future to either a success or a failure.

Live totally in the present,
Enjoying each and every moment,
Where it is all happening,
Where it truly matters.

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Its the feeling I can't forget..


No matter where I am,,
Or what I am doing..
When you come to my mind a smile comes to my face..
Being in love is wonderful,,I know..
BUT
To love and be loved in return is the greatest feeling ever..
I just can't forget when the first time
I fall in love with you..
Its the feeling I can't forget..

Love love love love love love

Love love love love love love

You were everything I wanted
You were everything a girl could be
Then you left me brokenhearted
Now you don't mean a thing to me

All I wanted was your
Love love love love love love

Hate is a strong word
But I really, really, really don't like you
Now that it's over
I don't even know what I liked about you
Brought you around and you just brought me down
Hate is a strong word
But I really, really, really don't like you
I really don't like you

Thought that everything was perfect (perfect)
Isn't that how it's supposed to be?
Thought you thought that I was worth it
Now I think a little differently

All I wanted was your
Love love love love love love

Hate is a strong word
But I really, really, really don't like you (I really don't like you)
Now that it's over
I don't even know what I liked about you (liked about you)
Brought you around and you just brought me down
Hate is a strong word
But I really, really, really don't like you

Now that it's over you can't hurt me
Now that it's over you can't bring me down

Oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh

All I wanted was your
Love love love love love love

(Hate) Hate is a strong word
But I really, really, really don't like you (I really don't like you)
Now that it's over
I don't even know what I liked about you (liked about you)
Brought you around and you just brought me down
(Hate) Hate is a strong word
But I really, really, really don't like you
(Oh oh oh oh oh oh)
I really don't like you
(Oh oh oh oh oh oh)
I really don't like you
(Oh oh oh oh oh oh)
I really don't like you
(Oh oh oh oh oh oh)

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

I'll never be so far from you


When you are alone,,don't worry..
just look to sky you might don't find me
But be sure we are under the same sky..
I'll never be so far

Monday, November 22, 2010

:)

Every time I see your face,
my heart smiles,
my stomach flutters & my voice chokes.
You make me wish every moment with you never stops.

Just a dream


I was thinking about her
Thinking bout me
Thinkin bout us
What we gunna be?
Open my eyes,
it was only just a dream...

So I drive on back
down that road
Will she come back?
No one knows
I realize
It was only just a dream.

I was at the top and now its like I'm in the basement
Number 1 spot, Now she find her a replacement
I swear now I can't take it
Knowing somebody's got my baby

Now you ain't around, baby I can't think
I shoulda put it down, shoulda got that ring
Cuz I can still feel it in the air
See her pretty face, run my fingers through her hair

My love of my life, My shawty, my wife
She left me, Im tied.
Cuz I knew that it just ain't right

I was thinking about her
Thinking bout me
Thinkin bout us
What we gunna be?
Open my eyes,
it was only just a dream...

So I drive on back
Down that road
Will she come back?
No one knows
I realize
It was only just a dream.

When I be ridin
man I swear I see your face at every turn
trying to get my usher on but I can't let it burn
And I just hope that she notice she the only one I yearn for
No more will I be missing, will I learn?


Didn't give her all my love
I guess now I got my payback
Now im in the club thinking all about my baby
HEY, she was so easy to love
But wait, I guess that love wasn't enough
I'm going through it everytime that I'm alone
Now I'm wishing she would pick up the phone
But she made a decision that she wanted to move on
Cause I was wrong.

I was thinking about her
Thinking bout me
Thinkin bout us
What we gunna be?
Open my eyes,
it was only just a dream...

So I drive on back
Down that road
Will she come back?
No one knows
I realize
It was only just a dream...

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up
Now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything


I was thinking about her
Thinking bout me
Thinkin bout us
What we gunna be?
Open my eyes,
it was only just a dream...

So I drive on back
Down that road
Will she come back?
No one knows
I realize
It was only just a dream...